Monday, April 26, 2010
The One Watching Over You
I am really such an idiot....you are the only one in my heart
You, who have eyes for someone else
You probably don't know how I feel
Your day probably will not include me
Not even your memories
It's only me, the one watching you
Watching the shape of your back is a kind of happiness to me
Even though to the very end, you do not understand my heart
When I really want to see you, at times when i can’t bear it
I am alone, crying for you
I am alone, missing for you
Because of you, I experienced many first times ...
Even if its just wishing and wishing
Labels: The Heart
Wednesday, April 7, 2010
ASS*ignment or Ass*ingment
Argh..............am supposed to hump my 2 cents worth on the blardee Micros*ft Word..... guess I accidentally ALT+Tab ...lolx...
Hmph..... I love what I am doing but I loathe doing it...... how do i effing justify that..... I should prolly just enlist that as another undiscovered mystery.....
Oh really..... one edeot with zero intellect and eye sight problems... commented I looked 3 years older because I haven't been smiling ... I had the blardee urge to order some bullets .... and be kreatif with that .......
sheeesh ...... my last gabba gabba was may 2009 ... here I am rawking 2010 .....
time flies they said ..... I eyed my clock... they ticked and tocked ....the minute and hour hand didn't grow wings ........... proven fact!!!
note to self...... must call Earth Hour Australia .................zzzzzzzzzzzz
be kind to dumb animals .....
ignore &^%&^%&
ignore
and ignore (ignorance is bliss and the daughter of admiration)
practice hear no evil, see no evil and speak no evil.....
i am at a point blank what to write... not inspired.... haven't got any magical beings pattering around me to plant any sugary thoughts on me demented mind ....
also, running out of excuse to stay away from me assignment..... ah feck feck......
I is lazy, stupid and restless now .......
sheeesh .....
Labels: My To Do Today
Saturday, May 30, 2009
30/05/09 Wintery Thoughts
Hmmmm.... Ventured into this accidently and I lubba lubba it ....
I venerate old age; and I love not the man who can look without emotion upon the sunset of life, when the dusk of evening begins to gather over watery eyes and the shadows of twilight grows .......... by Henry Wdsworth LongfellowMade me rendezvous about the things that once I liked traditionally
the old age bit hit a nerve .... reminds me the old fashion way of how simple things used to be ...
when you fall in love .. you fall just in love without having to go through the rollercoaster rides of emotions, doubts, uncertainties and the cognitive dissonance.
I begun to think that as we grow, we lost touch with our inner feelings... I forgot how emotions actually swept me away into hopes, dreams and faith ...
Old age is polluting me, I guess ...
I tried to recall my first time of everything ....
my first bicycle ride .. first rolercoaster ride ....my first job ... my first day at school, college, universities ....
my first date .. my first kiss...my first crush, my first BF ...The images were pretty hazy .... and so were the feelings ...
the first breakup didn't seem as earth shattering as it was... nor does the breakups that came in line after the first ... but the recent one is engraved deeper than the rest .. and I wonder why ...
30/05/09 Freedom @ A Famosa
Argh .... I ranted for weeks about wanting to be there ... beoz of many reasons like ... Fery Costen was spinning ..... Most of my biatches and botches will grace the dance floor and dive into the alcohol pool .... Yet, the lastest update comforted me .... LOLx... the event was a super suckiez ....
My 2 best biatches got lost .... they were supposed to take the exit out at Simpang Ampat / Tampin ... they ended up at Ayer Keroh ....Not surprised at all ..... I'll be surprised if they'd turn out right ....
Hookayz.... Enough of Commercial Break...
I need to zippo back to my last Assignment... Wootz ... Individual report on my group assignment...... need to write bullocks on group dynamics, strategic communications, conflict management and yada yada
Labels: My Biatchery
Thursday, May 21, 2009
Shopping
Finnaly a break from assignments and presentations .... Woot woot
Got 2 tops from Ax.....lurve it
4 bookies - Jackie Collins
Hollywood husbands
Hollywood wives
The STud
The Bitch
A pedicure .....
A wax ... eyeborw....
wahahhahahha
Rejuvenated .............
Labels: My To Do Today
Monday, May 18, 2009
Note To Self ......
Hmmm... Dear Keyboard...
Time to try and be creative again....
New resolution... at least one of the millions.....
Blog..... write jayberrish stuff and pollute the world...
Mission accomplished for today.... at least ... LOLx
Labels: My To Do Today
Sunday, November 25, 2007
£mp®€šsJå¥'s Tarot Card
So, Let's see how accurate the reading is! I'm happy I got the EMPRESS Card...YaYyyAY!
~My Power Cards~These cards represent strengths and abilities I was given at birth.
The Wheel of Fortune
The Wheel of Fortune deals with the unpredictable situations in life. Your path in life takes many detours, often directed by forces and events beyond your control. This card represents change in your life, so be ready for unexpected challenges to come your way. This card usually denotes that good luck is coming your way.
When The World or The Fool are among your personal cards, the influence of The Wheel of Fortune may be increased. Having The Hierophant or The Emperor in your personal cards may diminish the influence of The Wheel of Fortune.
The Magus
The Magus is the master of his own destiny and unafraid to act as he chooses. By setting specific and attainable goals, the Magician utilizes his great knowledge and wisdom to succeed where others have failed. He is the master of his own destiny. Although, with such power comes great responsibility. The Magician must decide whether to act morally, or forsake ethics for personal gain.
When The Chariot is among your personal cards, the influence of The Magus may be increased. Having The Empress or Hanged Man in your personal cards may diminish the influence of The Magus.
~My Desire Cards~These cards focus on my ambitions and dreams.
The Chariot
The Chariot is the representation of victory and a reminder that, through dedication and perseverance, great obstacles can be overcome. This card indicates that you are in control of your destiny and that your will is strong. Your refusal to surrender is your great attribute at this time. You will soon find yourself in a difficult situation that requires you to be in complete control of your actions and confident in your abilities.
When The Magus is among your personal cards, the influence of The Chariot may be increased. Having The Hanged Man or The Tower in your personal cards may diminish the influence of The Chariot.
The Empress<<<<< I LIKE!!!
The Empress is in tune with Nature and symbolizes the ability to connect with the planet. Nurturing and caring, she is often thought to represent birth itself. Not necessarily the birth of a child, but perhaps the birth of a new project or business venture. Although she appreciates the simple things in life, she is not afraid to let loose and enjoy abundance.
When The Lover or The Star are among your personal cards, the influence of The Empress may be increased. Having the Emperor or Death in your personal cards may diminish the influence of The Empress.
~My Lucky Cards~These cards represent factors that favor me.
Justice
Justice represents the balance in life between right and wrong. It is a reminder that you are accountable for your actions and you must be prepared to accept the consequences of any misdeeds. You have been given the strength to fight injustice in everyday life, so bring balance back into the world around you.
When The Emperor is among your personal cards, the influence of Justice may be increased. Having The Devil in your personal cards may diminish the influence of Justice.
The High Priestess
The High Priestess is the mysterious one and counterpart to the Magician. She symbolizes all that we are unable to perceive or comprehend, as she travels in dimensions that we can only imagine exist. She is able to uncover the infinite potential that exists within all humans. Her patience is perhaps her greatest virtue.
When The Hermit or Hanged Man are among your personal cards, the influence of The High Priestess may be increased. Having the Magus in your personal cards may diminish the influence of The High Priestess.
~My Growth Cards~These cards represent the major influences on me in the near future.
The Hierophant
The Hierophant is the protector of culture and traditions. Conventional by nature, he is a staunch defender of the beliefs a group embraces. He represents a spiritual guide and teacher and is someone to go to for guidance and advice. Never one to question authority, he thrives on structure and values and lives a life of conformity.
When The Emperor is among your personal cards, the influence of The Hierophant may be increased. Having The Fool or The Lovers in your personal cards may diminish the influence of The Hierophant.
The Magus
The Magus is the master of his own destiny and unafraid to act as he chooses. By setting specific and attainable goals, the Magician utilizes his great knowledge and wisdom to succeed where others have failed. He is the master of his own destiny. Although, with such power comes great responsibility. The Magician must decide whether to act morally, or forsake ethics for personal gain.
When The Chariot is among your personal cards, the influence of The Magus may be increased. Having The Empress or Hanged Man in your personal cards may diminish the influence of The Magus.
~My Core Cards~These cards represent my most basic traits.
The Star
The Star represents hope and optimism and the arrival of unexpected help. Now is the time to strive for goals that at one time seemed unattainable. Nothing is out of your reach now, so do not hold back. While the Star does not predict any immediate change, it does represent the limitless possibilities that life has to offer.
When The Fool or Empress are among your personal cards, the influence of The Star may be increased. Having The Moon or The Tower in your personal cards may diminish its influence.
Strength
Strength is a card of courage, determination and inner might. You are in a position to deal with whatever comes your way. You have reached a position of influence and no longer need to force your beliefs upon others. You are aware of the temptations that exist, but your ability to resist them is strong. Be careful not to take advantage of your power or risk becoming abusive and destructive. Listen to your inner voice and trust your instincts.
When The Hanged Man is among your personal cards, the influence of Strength may be increased. Having The Chariot in your personal cards may diminish the influence of Strength.
Thursday, November 22, 2007
The Last Episode Of Bathurst - To Be Continued
Me, I & Myself In Bathurst - 2007
(p/s: Enjoy the song as you run through this blog entry...this is what I am feeling now)
My roller coaster of life ~ ups, downs and loop - a - loops that I have been through, brought tears to my eyes. The things that I have lost along the way and things I have gained.
I have been blessed with many great things in life, it's like there's a guardian angel watching over me(Grandpapa, is that You? I miss you so badly.I still can't believe you are no longer with me. Grandpapa...my grandpapa) .
For those who loves me; thanks for having faith and trust in me, for being there when I needed a shoulder to cry on, giving me the courage & soul booster for tomorrow and thanks for being in my life, without anyone of you; the picture of my life is black & white.
What drove me to Bathurst....the push from everything I have...( enter password ******* to proceed)
My journey as of February 2007;saying goodbyes are never easy. AT KLIA, my family & Dylan.. turned my back and drag my lead feet through the immigration, I held back my tears, brought out my Jayism...(NO TURNING BACK)
11 hrs later, touched down in the fields of sheep (oppps ... that's the airport) Bathurst Regional Airport on the 9th February 2007! Popped my eyes at how quaint Bathurst is. Checked in, forage about and house hunting began..
Moved in on the 16th February, into the cute lil place where me and Winnie called home.
Chinese New Year came, I missed home.. I asked myself "WTF, am I doing here?"
Well, the answer is clear isn't it...
Classes started on 19th February, Orientations and we met with the rest of the IACT colony; Carin, Lili, Gabe & Tommy... the rest came later..Hanky Ho, Gavin & Sue Ann ..The Mini Asean Community in Bathurst
Ticks & tocks...the assignments & presentations spree... drove the best & worst out of us; hopes, confidences, disappointments, discouragements - there were tears, laughters, stress, satisfactions and ya da ya da ya da (Look at what we have achieved and learn..so much so farking much)
SONY, Australia
Velocity Angels
My Aden's Fun Day
Media Qube & The Bathurst Family
* Alrighty.... Writer's block... out of words... not in the state of mind to write
Shall re-edit and resume it ~ the Jay style
Meanwhile entertain yourself with the last session of CAMWHORE
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