Tuesday, September 18, 2007
Unsung Heart Tunes
Someone once told me, that I am too vulnerable and emotional to make it in this world, but hey ... You're Damn Righto!
I love listen to my heart, my philosophies and the way my celeberum works never change, it's just the surrounding and situations that changed... I guess my ways of living no longer adapt to it's environment.
I used to laugh, but these days.. I can only smile... I stopped questioning of what took place and instead.. prompts my flat butt in the corner and ignore the world
Know what I miss? I miss my humor ... i felt it departing from my 5 foot tall body... If this is growing up, please stop my body clock .... I am recalling the days, when the world wasn't this complicated ..
Tomorrow used to be a beautiful place... now i dread for tomorrow to come.. everyday the fear in me grows...
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Saturday, August 25, 2007
What's Real & What's Not
Hey There,
Isn't life ironic? I often ask myself this. How in blinks of the eyes, the images that stood before you, can flash away just in the matter of mili - seconds.
Life has been a blessings for me, look where I am, a BRAT,a Bitch,a Chameleon, Tempremental Fool, 50% Independent Prick, Bossy & Ego - maniac...the list goes on and on.....
You know,there are memories that I wish that I could just delete them away, yet they stood stubbornly at the corner of my Pentium 2 Processor. Occupying and contaminating my operating system. I wouldn't say they made me who I am today, but they've changed how I look upon life, reality.
Most of those memories had turned me into a cold heartless bitch, I have learnt to step away from land mines, I still remember the agony and pain that almost killed me.I shed tears of blood and parts of me are still bleeding, the scars are embroided all over me. I used to ponder, if it was all my own doing. Many told me," SHIT Happens.. It's not your fault, you didn't do anything"
I know I am freaking lucky... To have so many of you who truly loves me with all your heart. In your eyes, I am always Jay, just Jay.I just couldn't ask for more because I have the best from you guys..I love that fact that you all know me so well, how you see right through my soul. I lost count of the times you all tried to protect me from being hurt, how you stood up for me, fighting for me, pushing away boulders obstracting my way, but yet I am always capable of find ways to hurt myself... I think I have the tendency to attract mistakes.
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